Sunday, July 31, 2011

end posting rants

finished my o&g finally!! yay~
should be doing this reflection much earlier,
but totally not in the mood of writing anything,
after attending the most depressing forum ever in mecca,
in which the take home message was:
"u're gonna lose ur job VERY SOON!! "
i need SSRI pls, STAT!

well, kicking off the final year with 0&g might be the best arrangement for me,
not much time to lepak around,
not much time to get emo,
not much time to screw up my own life as well.
that's a good thing i guess.

moreover, i did gained lotsa new experiences,
having fun here and there, and tried my hands on lotsa new things.
assisted in 2 caesareans, which both ended up with PPH. (not my fault, it's the uterus!)
conducted 5 deliveries, with 3 precipitated labours. (not my fault again, some babies just simply can't wait, or maybe i have prostaglandins in my pheromone?? lol~)
performed 2 amniontomy successfully!!! yay!!!!!! though it's just a simple procedure.
(who cares~^^)

nonetheless, at the same time,
i did experienced lotsa frustrations and bad memories too.
nah~ not gonna keep them down.
life moves forward, not backward.

well, in comparison to my previous o&g posting,
less work satisfaction has achieved,
i dunno whether it's due to the sky-high expectations?? less guidance aka. more sesat??
tough competitions and the sardine-can-like wards??
well, my last 3 weeks was basically like zombie wandering around the hell aka. ward lifelessly.

i guess i did realised my mistakes by now,
i've forgotten my goal, totally.
so, instead of striving hard to achieve it,
i was just wandering around aimlessly.
*smack head* piak~

going to a new posting 2mr, family med.
not sure whether i'm gonna like it, but gonna like it anyway.
and i'm gonna remind myself everyday, on my goal,
and tell myself that what i did today,
will make a difference 2mr.

some nice sharings from our deputy dean this morning,

''we only have one life, dream what we wanna dream, do what we wanna do"

"The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway." Mother Teresa.

"Passion!!"

aza aza!!^^

Sunday, July 17, 2011

七月半

在呼吸间,想起你,
想要个抱抱,可以吗?