random wed

it's a beautiful wed,

cause it's a public holiday~

yay~

lame...

it's quite a gloomy day actually,

crisp cool,

and drizzling occasionally.

clicking aimlessly on fb,

i saw this album,

it's really nice,

so, i shared it here with everyone,

hope it'll cheer up everyone's gloomy day moody emo...

~人生的選擇 人生有三態～【悲觀、樂觀與達觀。】

悲觀的人說：人生像一杯苦酒，清濁均苦澀。
樂觀的人說：人生像一杯美酒，點滴皆芬芳。
達觀的人說：人生像一杯清泉，冷暖都清涼。

悲觀的人見到人生的生老病死；
樂觀的人見到人生的甘甜喜樂；
達觀的人見到人生的春夏秋冬。

悲觀的人埋怨風向
樂觀的人等待風向；
達觀的人調整風帆。

悲觀的人用加法生活，平添勞苦；
樂觀的人用減法生活，減少憂傷；
達觀的人用除法生活，分享喜樂。

與大家共勉之~(歡迎"分享"，感恩合十)

adapted from 靜思語~

just another week.

it seems like becoming a routine of mine,

for updating my blog at least once a week.

that's good right??

keeping everything on track.

nah~ i'm not that rajin la~

just waiting for my pics to be uploaded in fb~

haha~ gotcha~

=.=lll....

okay, back to this week.

routine med student aka. nerd life,

done cwu => a big yay!!!

visit to hosp. besar UK => not that UK again lar~ it's Ulu Kinta aka. so-called tanjung rambutan.

visit to hkl methadone clinic => place where druggies get sthg else instead of the REAL stuff.

basically, having fun here n there,

hot juicy gossips,

sleep,

gossips AGAN,

and sleep AGAIN...

weekends were much more fulfilling then,
for sat,

i attended a cardio-teach-in-session by college of physicians,

with bunch of ji-muis~

it was kinda interesting, but i dozed off occasionally.

(wonder when baru can i get rid of this habit??....zZzZzZzz...)

2 outcomes from it:

1.) freezing cold air-con => frozen brain => dozed off

2.) i really need to read my ECG made easy!!! becoz it's NOT EASY at all!!!

for sunday,

~ let's get physical~ physical~

haha~

went to bangi for a charity run.

by amsa health fiesta.

it's a good experience actually,

coz i NEVER really complete a run PROPERLY before,

(ps: one of my precious embarrass moment, came back by bus~ don't laugh!! blek!)

and i found an useful tips,

SET A TARGET!!!

GET A COMPETITOR!!!

and GO FOR IT!!!!

NAIL IT!!!

big group photo!!! bunch of mandarin oranges.

the uncle on the truck: ape budak semua ini buat...?!

completed run!! yay!!!

okay, that's all for it.

stop crapping.

tutttttttttttttttt.....

of traveling and food!!

lots of stuff going on between this and my previous post,

i went to london for Trauma Conference in Imperial College last week,

i went to muar yesterday,

i neglect my psy for the past 2 weeks, (haha, kill me~)

i got my exam result slip,

and now....

finally, i can settle down...

speaking of Trauma Conference,

it's really an awesome experiences,

we applied for it 1 month before the conference,

and our application got approved 1 week before the conference,

all the prep work was done within 1 week,

everything was so packed,

i was busy like hell for that week,

however, it really paid off ....

the best part of the conference was those practical workshops,

where we get to learn stuffs like insertion of chest tube, intubation, cricothyroidectomy, etc...

my 1st cricothyroidectomy

and i'm the slowest...^^"

unlike eamsc and amsc,

this conference was completely academic-based.

(actually they have social events as well, but we ponteng it~ haha~)

sight-seeing was fun,

london is indeed a very beautiful city,

with lots of amazing artistic buildings, statues, parks...

the sceneries were simply breath-taking...

green green grass and witted maple leaves = awesome!!!^^

the red telephone booth!!!

posing like victoria??!! lolz~~

st. james park~ lovely autumn~

museums are awesome too,

too bad i don't have the privilege to spent more time on them...

(ps: i saw real mummies~ and dinosaurs too!!! dead of course~^^")

though accidents happened here and there,

but overall it was an awesome trip.

hope i can tour the whole europe next time,

weeeeee~~

1 day after i came back,

with my biological clock still jet-lag-ing,

spontaneously, i went to muar....

with a bunch of S.A.D. penang siao-kia-s,

(*S.A.D. = single, available, desperate /

sexually, aggressive, desperate, coz single is not applicable on one of us)

my nanny~ we stayed at his place~ 1 of the tourist spot too^^

after ruining his place, he brought out the parang~~ haha

the whole trip was full of craziness, fao-kua-ness, sarcasms, juicy gossips and lotsa lotsa fun!!!!

pi-gui-pi-guai on the road^^

at gunung ledang, we polluted their waterfalls with chemicals, hairs and nasal discharge~

we ate and ate and ate...non-stop.

yay~ my favourite food!! we finished 40 in 10mins^^

laugh and laugh and laugh....non-stop as well.

well, the best part of the trip was all of us are very close friends,

sporting, crazy and spontaneous...

so i guess u can imagine how was the trip throughout....

ai-yan beside the road

fao-kua in the 'palace'~

ai-yan AGAIN~ by a gigantic durian~

(ps: even dwee wee got infected too!!!)

i enjoyed the trip very much,

despite it was just a 2-day trip,

hope all of us can embark on another cuti2 m'sia trip again...

so, that's all for now i think..

gonna work hard for the next few coming weeks,

(ps: got my worse exam results ever...)

so, fingers crossed,

wish me luck^^

(ps: slap me if u see me slacking again^^'')

颓废~ runaway

颓废的面具下, 只想runaway....

无名的怒火 有说不出的无力 想敲打我自己
os:太阳快要下山了 什么都不做 只拿着遥控器 一直不停的换台
麻木的神经 感觉自己像个机器 快不能呼吸
os:快打开冰箱看看里面的东西 唉~ 除了酱瓜什么也没有 算了吧 去外面吃吧

火辣的太阳 永远在前方
无尽的公路 无尽的追求

我想要 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 run away run away

像困在雾里 焦躁的想从茫然的现实中逃离
os:唉~ 想的太简单了吧 你觉得你想做的都可以做得到吗?
淡掉的感情 还坚持下去又有什么意义
os:喂! 你拿着车钥匙要去哪里啊 你别忘明天还要上班呢 别在外面鬼混了
风吹乱头发 黑暗星空下 无尽的公路 无尽的自由

我需要 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 就快去 run away
我可以 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
是为自己不为谁 不在乎的 run away

很多人再说 不断的一直说 必须这样子做 不能够那样做
却又没有办法在自己的生命中突破 oh ya~
如果再不走 就永远不会走 别让自己再回头 没挣扎怎能够有自由 快走

现在就 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 run away run away
快点去 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
是为自己不为谁 不在乎的 run away

现在要 run away run away
今天要 run away run away
现在要 run away run away
今天要 run away run away

changed~

for all these while,

i super hate being isolated or left out,

whether purposely or not.

but now, i've realised that

no matter how hard i try,

no matter how good am i,

i will always be the outsider,

the extra one,

the outcast.

but somehow,

i don't feel like being bothered by these anymore,

life's too short for all these craps!!!

i don't care being an outcast.

i don't care being isolated.

i don't care being left out.

as long as i live my life

and be happy,

much much happier than u!!!!

who cares what u do??

cheers~ for all the outcast!!

cheers~ for life!!!^^

little whines and moans.

just noticed that i was whining and moaning more than usual recently,

no big matters though...

after flickering for the whole night, my table lamp has officially RIP....

hopefully our beloved hard-working and efficient office will sent someone to fix it soon.

(ps: my myopia is kinda bad now, i really don't wanna become blind when i grad then.)

i guess i'm gonna be 'nomad-nerd' for the few coming weeks until it's fixed.

'sangat-sangat men-depressive-kan' aka. ssm is driving me crazy,

presentation, proposal and slides corrections, translation, citations, references, bla bla bla...

again and again.

seriously... i don't care.

the weather is freaking hot!!!!

so do my room,

is global warming getting more serious???

i'm putting weight REALLY fast recently,

can barely fit in my formal pants.

gosh~ i seriously need to cut down my junks intake...

other than those, i think i'm pretty happy with my life now.

psychiatry is kinda interesting for me, for now.

human mind is always a mystery.

i get to understand more about myself,

as well as peoples around me.

btw, i'm so addicted to glee recently *flight of ideas*

their songs are awesome!!!

can we have a glee club here too???

*thought block*

tu..........

sharing: 成熟~

1、 遇到不想回答的問題 ：直視對方的眼睛 ，微笑、 沈默 。

2 、走路抬頭挺胸，心情不好時，不想跟人招呼，點頭微笑，逕直走過 。

3 、請記得 ：好朋友的定義是，你混的好，他打心眼裡為你開心，你混的不好，他由衷的為你著急 。

4 、做自己的決定 ，然後準備好承擔後果 。從一開始就提醒自己 ，世上沒有後悔藥吃， 而我永遠有個 B計劃。

5、 自己分內的事情 ，努力做到一百分 。

6 、接受自己不過是個"小小的我" ，但眼裡要能夠悅納"大大的世界" 。

7、 如果你真的喜歡一個人，就給他自由。如果他能回到你身邊，他就是你的，如果他沒有回來，那他也永遠不屬於你。

8 、不要試圖給自己找任何藉口，錯誤面前沒人愛聽那些藉口。

9 、不要隨意發脾氣，誰都不欠你的 。

10 、不說謊話 ，因為總有被拆穿的一天。

11 、別低估任何人。

12 、你沒那麼多觀眾 ，別那麼累 。

13、 過去的事情可以不忘記 ，但一定要放下。

14 、別人說的記在腦袋裡，而自己的， 則放在心裡。

15 、社會是有等級的， 很多事不公平， 別抱怨 ，因為沒有用 。

16 、你永遠沒有你自己想像中那麼重要 。

17 、錢能解決的問題統統不叫問題。

18 、無論何時說"我愛你"，請真心實意， 無論何時說"對不起"， 請看著對方的眼睛。

19、 永遠不要以貌取人，慢慢地說，但要迅速地想。

20 找點時間，單獨呆會兒 .

21 不是自己的東西不要 ，就是再喜歡也不行 ，要懂得放棄 。

22 不要覺得是生活虧欠了你 ，其實是我做的努力不夠 。

23 努力向前，再努力向前，再努力一下下，願望就會實現 ！

24 永遠沒有堅持到底的失敗，也不會有半途而廢的成功。

25 三人行必有我師，沒有人會比你弱，好學、上進的心態。多問問自己："我努力了沒有？"。

from: http://donna123.pixnet.net/blog/post/18267232