MIA

aaaaa! i miss here, a little world of my own...

ya peps, gonna update myself a bit, after being MIA-ed for the past 3 months,

well baiscally, i've been struggling hard to survive and adapt in a total new,
and rather strange environment,

and hmm...what can i say...

yoohoo!!! i enjoyed it!! haha *syok-sendiri-ing*

from a total newbie driver,
i'm totally capable to drive like a manic and annoying CKL driver from penang,

(can't help, it's in my blood, ha!)

from a newbie houseman who screwed up everything and constantly freaks-out on every single little complaint during night-calls, i can manage to control my uncontrolled panicking and function like a sane human who works in the middle of the night with high dose of caffeine. (tho i still screwed up here and there constantly)

from a road-idiot who needs at least 3 secs to differentiate right from left and have no sense of directions at all, i can now scoot around the new town with my new toy, eating breakfast, groceries shopping, haircuts, meeting up friends for lunches, dinners and DESSERTS!! haha 

ya, i'm basically a functional working adult now.

tho i really miss the fun of being a student, but i kinda love my life now,

work hard, play harder,

cheers peps!! 

*let your dreams be bigger than your fears and your actions louder than your words*

jia you everyone, amtb^^

临离别骚

剩下的时间已不多，
每天都不舍得睡觉，
三更半夜地在胡思乱想。
会舍不得吗，当然。
想飞，却有着不住的思念。

bla bla bla~

yoyo!! almost forgotten that i owned a blog,
rotting too much this holiday =)
btw, this is another must-blog-moment of mine,
you know, quarter-life!!!
narcissist like me will talk non-stop about myself again.
bla bla bla~
anyway, nothing gonna stop me,
haha~
so, this is basically how i spend my 25th birthday:

1. playing temple run by using my non-dominant hand.
    (ps: that was to train my right brain, according to sis)

2. cam-whoring with new camera apps, and uploaded them all=)

3. playing bubble-bubble aka. zuma by using middle finger,
    that's quite challenging, no offence, too fat=)

4. wat-ing friends and family to belanja makan~

4.writing chinese calligraphy, that is someone's holiday homework by the way.
    (ps: plan to cosplay as Lee-Bai initially, too bad, no misai)

5. driving aka. drifting, to and fro, penang international airport, improving the blood circulation of my uncle, aunty, sister and cousin. (ps: huh~ that's a big step =)

6. jiwang-ing happily with a kutu malam, in the middle of the night, about relationships and break-ups.

7. getting international calls from different countries, wishing me happy birthday.
    (thanks peps, you know who you are.)

8. replying birthday wishes and messages from family and friends, a big thanks to u all~
   (by the way, i got 2 surprise wishes, one from google homepage and another from my dean.)

that's all, have a nice day everyone!!^^

the moment

this is another must-blog-moment of mine again,
finally, it has come to an end of my student life, for now.
gan en, for Buddha blessings,
gan en, for all the prayers from my family and friends,
gan en, for all the good things and bad things that happened in my uni life,
i'm indeed glad that, it has come to an end.

peoples always say that,
time passes by, in just a blink of eye.

from the crazy stresses and tension in the study weeksSssSs,
from those devastating days of preparing for the so-called first-day-er clinical exam,
till that relief moment when the bell of the last short-case-station rang,
till that desperate moments of begging and praying for a pass,
till that moment, i heard my name being called by Prof Raymond,
i guess i will never forget how was it like.

i should be celebrating like crazy now,
yet, here i am, sitting in front of my beloved lappy,
typing this out, word by word.
i guess, i am not the same person any more.

one of my friend told me this: (he is one of the distinction)
'when we make it, there are peoples who are unfortunate...'
and one of them is my best friend throughout these 5 years in uni,
seriously i have no idea how to handle the emotion,
my initial thought is to get myself drunk up,
too bad, the plan failed.
i guess i should grow up and face it,
rather than running away from it.
life's never fair, deal with it.

anyway, back to myself,
like what my senior mentioned before,
'Notice the sparcity of your knowledge, the rigidity of your physicals, 
the stammer in your presentations, the nonsensical things that you never meant to say but blurt out anyway. Remember how hopeless you feel while waiting for results. Remember this, even 20 years later, for it will make you a humble doctor, and a motivated educator. Remember :) '

so i wrote this down, at this very moment, 

and hopefully one day when i feel that life's sucks and wanna give up, 

i will fortunate enough to read this again.

MD UKM, 2007-2012.

adios~*

at the edge

someone told me this before:
use this opportunity as a way back to His side,
and that's all i can do now,
pray...

幸运儿II

幸亏，那天被人偷了钱包后，很快的就被好心人捡到了，
还以为，又要重新办过好一大堆的证件了。

幸亏，那天在高速公路上爆胎，车没失控或给后面的车撞着了，
还以为，就要成为国家车祸统计里的一个数字了。

幸亏，那天下来帮忙我们修理车的印度先生，是真的雪中送炭，
还以为...没有还以为啦，我长得很安全~ 哈~

幸亏，那天没带手机被反锁在无人经过的男厕所里，撞一撞后，门就打开了。
还以为，年还没过，就要被活生生的饿死在男厕所里了~ 囚~

幸亏，那天不小心把新手机遗留在护士站里，没被人拿走。
不然，老妈真的会把我这只大头虾活生生煮来吃~

幸亏，那天一直以为不见了的学生证，竟然给自己找到了。
不然，又要山长水远的去总校重新办过。

幸亏，幸亏。
老天还蛮疼我这个笨又没笨完的白痴。
感恩~*

幸运儿

好久没上来涂鸦了，
期待已久的新年，也在一眨眼间，结束了。

今年的新年，过得很宅，但却很充实，
家，总是最好的避风港兼充电器~
累了，垮了，盲了，遗失了，
就回家吧。

(ps: eww~ 还真受不了自己七早八早在那里感性~*)

quarter-life crisis

i have been writing a lot lately,
having my so-called quarter-life crisis.

i have not been sleeping well,
having difficulty in initiating sleep, as well as early awakenings.
my postural hypotension is getting worse,
having more and more mini blackouts for the past 1 week.

i'm full of moodiness, emo-ness,
sense of insecurities and lost,
self-doubts and frustrations,
and the worst is,
i don't even have the slightest idea about what i really want.

sometimes,
i do wish that i can be strong and independent,
surviving in a total new environment without depending on the others.
i wish that i can grow up,
and stop being such a blur and hopeless person.
why can't i??

(ps: comparing to my previous post, i guess i fit bipolar perfectly.)

决定

每个人的一生中，总有个几个决定，会影响他的一生。
平日的日子，还可以懵懵懂懂的混过，
但，来到了这么一个交叉点的时候，
总得想想，什么才是最重要的。

总有太多的因素要思考，
太多的选择要取舍，
太多的放不下得放下。

人生，是个未知数，
谁也不能担保，今天做的决定，
一定是最对的，最好的。
但，只要尽力的做好自己，
我相信，上天冥冥中一定会有他的安排。

振作

女人，请振作!!!

你没时间伤心了。

(quarter-life crisis-ing~ T.T)
要越战越强~
越战越强~

2012, a new game begins.

happy 2012 everyone~!!^^

should be writing this post much earlier,

but having too much of 欢乐 for the past few days~

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

2012, new year, new game.

needless to say, 

lame people like me will always write a long list of new year resolutions.

so, hang with me yea~ haha

1. Be the CHANGE you want to see in this world. Kindness spreads.

2. Friends accept you for who you are. 

    朋友是把看透你了，还是死赖着和你一起的人

    I'm looking for friends, and hoping to become one too. 

3. If you don't like about something, CHANGE it. 

    Don't afraid of changes, if you never try, you'll never know.

    and stop whining, like it's gonna change ANYTHING~ dah~~

4.  我要闪婚~!! *瞎*

5. Picture yourself TEN years later. 

    想象十年后的你，身在那里，在做些什么，成为什么样的人。

    

6. You only have ONE life, LIVE it, with no regrets. 

7. 继续欢乐~ 无所不乐~ 生命太严肃了，切莫当真。

    weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

8. Life's best when it's SIMPLE. 

    Stop complicate things by over-analysing every word and action. 

9. give HUGsSsSss~ appropriately. haha

10. Sing~!! lotsa lotsa K~!!!

11. 缘聚缘散。

     缘聚时，把握珍惜；缘散时，感恩放下，

     再继续往前走，明天一定会更好。

12. 把自己看得太重，只会越沉越重~

13. Have courage, to have adventures in life. 

14. In 20 years, you will be more regret on things that you never do,
      rather than things that you actually did. 

15. “如果明天的太陽依然升起，我們開始第二個人生吧” ~阿信

16. Life's a cumulations of mistakes and decisions. so?

      make the BEST out of it. 


17. *pray hard~* i'm gonna be strong enough to win the final battle!!　
　　每个人推到上帝面前的筹码都不一样，那就是努力。

18. LOVE your parents, just like how they love you, UNCONDITIONALLY~ 

Coolio~

HAPPY 2012~!!!

Have lotsa fun~!!!

i'm not going to write a review on 2011 this year,
not in the mood plus most were being written down in the previous posts,
adios 2011~!!^^