Tuesday, May 12, 2009

a new chapter of life^^

hey hey hey...a day before my school start...

that means a new life for me...^^

i promise myself...

that i will to change...

as there won't be so much 2nd chance given...

i promise that...

i will not loose my temper sesuka hati again....

i will not break the five rules...

i will stay calm...no matter what arise...

i will not talk bad things about other ppl...

i will love & appreciate everyone...

i will call my mum everyday...

i will smile from my heart and soul...

i will be grateful for everyday...

i will study really hard...

i will huan xi zhuo...huan xi shou~~

can't think of so much for now, may continue adding this list...

wish me luck^^


Sunday, May 10, 2009

sharings: i'm sorry..that..i love you...


I'm sorry...
If you read this, and don't even care...

But most of all...

I'm sorry...
For not being sorry anymore...

I'm sorry...
That you can't accept me for who I am...

I'm sorry...
I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good enough to make it in your world...

I'm sorry...
I have priorities and don't have much time to go out...

I'm Sorry...
That when I've had a long day, all I want to do is to feel comfortable with you...

I'm Sorry...
That i fall fast when I know what my heart feels...

I'm sorry...
That I run away when i don't know what to do...

I'm sorry...
That I'm tired of fighting, and that I don't want to be hurt anymore...

I'm sorry...
That i'm tired of searching to be accepted and that there's nothing else I can do...

I'm sorry...
That I told you I loved you and actually meant it...

I'm Sorry...
That I cared...

And last...

I'm sorry...
that I wasn't what you were looking for...

I'm sorry...
that I couldn't give you what you thought you deserved...


I'm sorry,
that I still can't help thinking of you even you no longer belongs to me...

I'm sorry
that you broke my heart...

I'm sorry...
that I gave you the chance to break my heart again...

But mostly...
I'm sorry that I don't hate you...
Because you know damn well that I should.

saw this beautiful love poem in my last few days here,
kinda sad i think, but can't help loving it...

AGAIN...my question...
why is love so damm hard??

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Spontaneous Idealist (SI)

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

As a Spontaneous Idealist you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a colorfully diverse group of people who interest and inspire you. Working in a “secluded room” is not your thing. Your sense for the motivation of others is almost eerie. You constantly observe that which happens around you and have no problems noticing all sorts of things simultaneously or communicating with several people at the same time.Your enthusiasm is contagious to others and that is why your colleagues and friends all appreciate you as an important member of your team. Your articulateness and your sensitive ear for nuances in conversations with others obviously play a role. For you, this team-oriented environment is very important because you need to receive positive feedback and recognition like other people need air to breathe. It would be practically impossible for you to contribute everything you need to maintain your high ideals, by yourself.Variety, challenges and fun are important ingredients of your area of responsibility. You appreciate receiving new stimulation, meeting new people, and continuously collecting unique experiences. However, too much routine, too much detail work and the necessity to stick with one project for a very long time is not your thing. Your strength are creative problem solutions, discovering new ways and opportunities, the conceptualization of new ideas on one hand, but not so much their concrete implementation on the other. Ideally, you have a staff of capable colleagues that takes over your concepts and runs with them.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

When you are in love, you easily outperform all other personality types in terms of enthusiasm and panache. Then your commitment knows no limits. You go out of your way in your eagerness to express your affection, and in your happiness, you are ready to embrace the entire world. When watching your attempts to flirt, one can’t help but think about a puppy dancing happily around its new playmate. Then for you simply nothing exists but your newfound love. „Hold your horses!“ - “Discretion is the better part of valor!” - “All that glitters is not gold!” - these worldly wisdoms are nothing but a waste of time. With the entire spontaneity of your personality type, you instinctively immerse yourself in your emotions because you are sure that this time you have found the perfect partner. And you want everything here and now. You can probably go through as many divorces and separations as you want, but you are never going to learn from experience and at the age of 70 - and with shining eyes - you are still ready to walk down the aisle. Your friends may sometimes have a problem watching this, but they can only shake their heads in exasperation, and hope and pray, because in those moments you won’t accept advice from anyone. Then it would be easier to get in the way of a Tsunami. In a long-term partnership you are a charming, affectionate, and unconventional partner, always good for a surprise, always there if you are needed, always ready for a loving compliment. As generous as you are with your feelings, so do you love to spend money and lavish your partner with gifts - sometimes even causing the very security minded and conservative types in the relationship to get a little weak in the knees. Should they now be happy that you abducted them to a luxury hotel for a romantic weekend, or should they be concerned whether there will be a problem when the next rent payment becomes due? Everyday things only interest you peripherally anyway; sometimes you walk with a downright childish confidence through life believing that the universe, fate or some other supreme powers are going to make sure that at the end everything will work out. So, why worry and save? It is interesting that this sometimes even works!


Adjectives which describe your type: spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable

this is the ipersonic test that i done this morning~~ hahaha, the description is damm too long already...lazy to read, so saja post it here la~~

ps: if u're free, pls help me read thru it and explain to me when u're free la^^ thx ya^^

Thursday, May 7, 2009

flashing back...moving on....

it's coming towards the end of my 2nd year holidays... huh, pretty fast isn't it??! have decided to write something about my 2nd year uni's life since the beginning of the sem break but still....
...busy busy busy~~ haha, bad excuses i think...

emm, lots of thoughts zooming past my big head...lots of things happened, lots of memories still being embraced, lots of memories begin to fade away and being forgotten...emm...kinda emo now~~by the way, still remember my pre-"school going to start liao" syndrome?? i think it happened again, hahaha^^

merepek so much od...time to start liao~~

as i have mentioned previously, i have moved to a new condo in this year, got to know with a bunch of new roommates and housemates, and also the pak cik jaga, the receptionist aunty, the thailand mak cik, the k5's guards....lots of joyful moments occured, thanks a lots to my roommates and housemate~~ we have plenty of wonderful time together...let me see, emm...we have steamboats, we have the j.tXXX fashion show comment sessions...'agua' and 'cute boy' jokes...ester's yummy delicacies, we have rm32,000, air force army....haha, u guys sure know what i mean... zhihan, ester, connie, ray....having u guys as my roommates and housemates is the best thing that happened in my uni's life^^ thx o sis~~ i will sure miz u guys lots n lots~~

next...my life as a 2nd year 'budak medic'....busy busy busy~~ let's see...


hari interaksi ~
~~ photographer, can't believe it right?! haha^^ like the job btw^^

warisan mesra ~
~~ ahli tidur n ponteng back earlier...^^ where is my ayam bbq??

opkim
~~ photographer AGAIN?? miz my mak angkat's delicious kuih^^

clinical booths ~
~~ publicity^^ have much fun and learned a lots from them^^ still can remember that balloon uncle....btw, i design my first flyers^^

buddhist f.ship ~ 
~~ publicity AGAIN^^ flyers, flyers and more flyers...hahaha^^ junior
welcoming nite...dharma class...zhuan wen shifu...aunty peisan...sis 'huo ji"....gotta miz u guys lots^^ gud luck for de coming bf camp o!

agm ~ 
~~ protocol..^^ can't believe it AGAIN?? nah, u don't need to be pretty or handsome to do that okay??

AIDS booth 4KL ~
~~ the best part^^ get to know with lots of friends, mostly juniors^^ they are really fun and committed...the banners, games, quiz, the condom demostrations...hahaha^^ a big thx to them^^ btw, i found my 'butterfly' brother there^^

eamsc ~
~~ sponsorships...quite suprising right?! me too, i'm the type of ppl who 'zhi ming qing gao' 1, why will i choose this job?? i dunno why also^^ why am i here????? peer pressure kua...hahaha...^^ however, learned lots of stuff, letters...letters and more letters...haiz...

~ ytar camp ~
~~ fun and interesting~~ flying fox, walking the very high up there punya line, cookings n lots of friends...
~i like to move it move it~ he likes to move it move it~~ she likes to move it move it~~we like to~~MOVE IT!!! hahaha^^


huh?! quite a lot right?? busy~ busy~ busy~ tiring but fun and satisfy~~

so, looking back, lots have been done, lots have not...

and there's still a long long journey to go....a long long way to carry on...

like what my best friend chiemin told me...u're now one by one step, sewing on the white coat of a doc...n i'm glad to say that i think i have completed the 2 sleeves...going on with the collar and the body....

can't wait for the journey ahead^^ i'm sure it will be much more tougher...with more challenges and obstacles.... but still, i am waiting for it to come~~ rough seas make great sailors right??

hahaha~~ moving on~~ lots of stuff awaiting~~ bf camp, t.hsiang camp, ytar camp, world health day, amsc taiwan, eamsc kl...etc..etc...
here i come!!!^^

sharings: 爱一人...


如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.
i got this forward msg from a friend recently,
kinda same with what i have posted previously....
AGAIN...my questions is...
why love can be so so hard???
if love are meant to be so hard,
should i just give up on it??
or I still have to cling on the believe that miracle does happens??
it's complicated? isn't it??

Saturday, May 2, 2009

hapy car wash day^^

hey hey hey....proudly present our carwash day at ppukm....
take a peek here...on what we do that day...


we wash cars of course....^^



but most of the time....we ordered the others to wash....hehe^^



we 'phan-phok' some time.... most of the time i think...^^



we take photos also...esp those who drool while sleeping....haha^^





we oink oink ^^.... hee, really tired huh?!



we fighted?? or juz acting?? i also dunno what are they doing^^
ss....syok sendiri i guess....


emm...we played lots of games....
by the way...who's the killer???
why i always got killed?? ...T.T...


hapy hapy amsa family^^
got to know lots of new frens...
lots of fun...lots of laughter....^^
lots of sweats....lots of joys....^^
tho it's really tiring....but still hapy n satisfy...
frenship 4va!!