finally, it has come to an end of my student life, for now.
gan en, for Buddha blessings,
gan en, for all the prayers from my family and friends,
gan en, for all the good things and bad things that happened in my uni life,
i'm indeed glad that, it has come to an end.
peoples always say that,
time passes by, in just a blink of eye.
from the crazy stresses and tension in the study weeksSssSs,
from those devastating days of preparing for the so-called first-day-er clinical exam,
till that relief moment when the bell of the last short-case-station rang,
till that desperate moments of begging and praying for a pass,
till that moment, i heard my name being called by Prof Raymond,
i guess i will never forget how was it like.
i should be celebrating like crazy now,
yet, here i am, sitting in front of my beloved lappy,
typing this out, word by word.
i guess, i am not the same person any more.
one of my friend told me this: (he is one of the distinction)
'when we make it, there are peoples who are unfortunate...'
and one of them is my best friend throughout these 5 years in uni,
seriously i have no idea how to handle the emotion,
my initial thought is to get myself drunk up,
too bad, the plan failed.
i guess i should grow up and face it,
rather than running away from it.
life's never fair, deal with it.
anyway, back to myself,
like what my senior mentioned before,
'Notice the sparcity of your knowledge, the rigidity of your physicals,
the stammer in your presentations, the nonsensical things that you never meant to say but blurt out anyway. Remember how hopeless you feel while waiting for results. Remember this, even 20 years later, for it will make you a humble doctor, and a motivated educator. Remember :) '
so i wrote this down, at this very moment,
and hopefully one day when i feel that life's sucks and wanna give up,
i will fortunate enough to read this again.
MD UKM, 2007-2012.
adios~*
