confession of a workaholic

first and foremost,

i'm not emo-ing,

i'm pissed!!!

instead of getting those nice, funny and motivating emails,

my inbox was spammed with tones of meeting minutes, updates,

and all sorts of boring work-related stuffs....

every nudge from the msn will be work-related, new assignment, meetings,

corrections, technical problems, bla bla bla....

instead of making crazy jokes and catching up with 'how's life??'....

same goes to my phone calls and cellphone inbox,

no more funny texts, no more seasons greetings,

no more 'hey, long time no see, are u still alive??'

(except my beloved mommy~~ that's why i love her~)

and the point is:

i'm NOT even start working yet!!!

and that's not the worst part,

the worst part is when there's NO work,

there will be:

NO incoming emails,

NO sms,

NO phone calls,

just nothing....

is that kinda pathetic?? i guess it is....

i felt like a working machine,

at which my presence is valued only when there is work,

when there is none:

SHOO!!! go away!!!

u're not needed~

we're having fun here,

u have no function here, disappear~~

i learned my lesson of being a 'workaholic' when i was in 1st year,

and i swear i'm gonna turn a new leaf,

but now, instead of being a non-workaholic,

pathetically, i just changed my job,

from studying insanely to working non-stop,

turned out that i'm STILL a pathetic workaholic,

just that my 'job aspects' that has been changed.

i'm not whining or moaning about my work,

ironically, i love to work with peoples...

but now,

i was just getting more and more tired,

with disappointment choking me day by day....

who am i??

am i really nothing else but a working machine??