ms syndrome

aka. medical student syndrome

chief complain:

a constellation of non-related complains ranging from mild cold till life-threatening neurological symptoms....

involving all the 7 main systems of the body.....

ps: basically will complain of whatever bermacam2 disease that they are currently studying...

and will keep on changing according to the rate of study and their current posting

but the last sentence will usually be: i think i'm dying soon....

symptoms:

usually corresponds to the current disease that they are studying...

end with: feel like dying soon....

also frequently changed according to the rate of study and their current posting...

signs:

also correspond to the signs of the current disease that they are studying...

the ending is still the same: signs of impending death....

still...frequently changed according to the rate of study and current posting....

so, after crap-ping for so long...

being a typical medical student,

i also can't be escaped from this highly infectious occupational disease,

here go my list:

i was suspected to have:

1. bipolar - due to frequent episodes of maniac, hypomaniac and depression attacks....liak-kong~

2. some sort of brain tumors - due to an attack of syncope^^ i'm PARANOID by the way...

3. hyperthyroidism - tremors, heat intolerance, high cold tolerance...FEVER!!!

4. dengue - fever AGAIN...somemore staying in a highly 'endemic' area....

5. obsessive compulsive disorder - my feet, my hair, hand-washing....haiz....

6. chronic fatigue syndrome - asyik tired saja, sikit2 pun dah SOB (shortness of breath)

7. narcolepsy- sleep and sleepy and sleep again, but still sleepy....

8. o&g induced hypertension and heart failure - "jokers, i will fail u all, nonsense...."

so, the list goes on, and i'm having nacrolepsy attack...niteZ....

stupid emo again...

i tried and failed,

i failed and yet kept trying,

maybe it's time to let go,

it will be better if i still have some sweet memories left....

as time goes by,

i will forget about you,

don't talk to me,

nor smile to me,

don't walk with me,

nor comfort me,

we are just like any strangers now,

time is the best medicine after all....

my 1st week in o&g

as what i have mentioned in my previous blog, i have entered the posting which has the highest failure rate in a med school --- o&g...

as i completed the 1st week of my posting there, a mixture of feelings and thoughts came across my mind....

so, i listed down some of them here...

1. first of all, a big salute to all the mums in the world, especially the one that gave birth to me 22 years ago, for the hours of torturing and all those dahsyat things that can occur in the process of delivery. mummy, u're the best!!! i never think i would put myself in such situation for anyone in this world and yet, mum has gone through all these bloody, gross and damm painful process for the three of us~~ mummy, love you lots and lots!!!^^

2. i came across to the same questions that kept bothering me during my 1st year in med school, which is "is med school really a wise choice for me??"" will i become a good, safe and competent doctor 5 years later???", "am i able to stitch up the torn vagina calmly with the blood kept oozing out and the mother kept moaning in pain at the same time???" " am i able to handle a situation when both mother and her child are in great danger during a difficult delivery???"

3. i met a patient who has to separated with her newborn baby very soon after delivery. she has suffered so much for her child during the delivery and yet due to lots and lots of unreasonable reasons, she have to gave up her child to someone else.... sometimes, life isn't fair, some mistakes are meant not to be done even at the first time, though there will always be options and ways to solved the mistakes but all the options will never be easy....

4. though it is damm tired, stress and busy in this posting, nonetheless, it's a posting where all the emotions and feelings come in...i'm at one of the most important point of a mother's life, where she need to go through so much pain and danger to give birth to someone she will love the most in the rest of her life...

0&g, it's all about the circle of life and the beginning of a new chapter of a woman's life...

Tarrot's

現狀: 月亮

你的心一直懸著，在一段曖昧不明的關係中起起伏伏，沒有安全感卻又很渴望，你的生活步調，已經受到很大的影響。

問題: 皇帝
可能因為你太過於獨立，習慣自己掌握主導權，如果有人對你示好，你通常是反應遲鈍的，有時趕跑了一些人還渾然不覺。

建議: 命運之輪
多出國、或至少到外縣市走走，你適合跟你一樣熱愛生命跟探險的人，不適合佔有慾過強，或是太居家的生活。

the above is the results of my tarrot's card, chun bo???

the day before o&g...

2mr is the beginning of my o&g posting...

the so-called orang garang or orang ganas posting...

kinda nervous, panic, anxious now,

since so many peoples have failed it during the previous batch,

but ironically at the same time,

i'm kinda high, excited, and can't wait for what will happen 2mr.....

pray hard....

hopefully i'm ready to accept this challenge,

hopefully i can have a great teacher/doctor that willing to teach me everything he/she know,

hopefully i can have the determination, interest and the persistent to study it,

and last but not least,

hopefully i can learn as much as i can in these 2 coming months....

everything begins from today,

remember my 修行，藉境炼心。。。

add oil yea~~ ^^

sem break

it is kinda weird that previously i will only conteng my blog during holiday,
but now, i totally not in the mood to write anything during my totally super free + eng sem break...

overall, lots of things happened,

in summary: eat and eat and eat....

mum-cooked-spaghetti, steamboat, sushi-king, lots of mcd, ABC, mooncakess, my favourite home-made-ice-blended-fruit-juices, hokkien-mee, char-koay-teow, wantan-mee, koay-teow-ting, char-bee-hoon....

wakakaka~
basically, that is what a non-productive holiday meant for...

and also, i got my results for this sem,
god bless~
i have passed it^^
i thought i will sure kantoi this time...
can't imagine how grateful i am...

phew~
again, like everytime during the beginning of a new sem,
i will set lots of targets for myself,

nevertheless....
looking back,
lots of them are yet to be achieved...

so, i think i will just skip this part for this sem,
(but basically they are still the same as what i have written during my previous sem)

hopefully.
this time...
i will have the determination/ yuan li to achieved them...

the road ahead will not be easy,
so add oil o girl!!!

mentioned here again my favourite quote:

yesterday is a history,
tomorrow is a mystery,
but today,
is a gift,
that's why we call it "present"...

<<魔力>>

夜深人静，睡不着...

想起首歌。。

这首歌是酱的....

有一首歌，要送给你...

听好...一，二，三...

i have you to be with

everything will be easy

晒的阳光 淋的雨滴 都值得回忆

i have you to be with

懂心不够近才怕距离

心电感应 绝不断讯 会如影随形

曾灰心以为 我来错了世界

太多想法很另类 找不到人了解

当我说的感觉 牵动着你的脸

互动的泪 让我们变得特别

你是我的魔力 想要勇敢就想你

一眨眼睛 把不如意 都变成流星

你是我的魔力 心情不好我就想你

删除忧郁 复制甜蜜 笑容不结冰

幸福是间电影院 没有单人的座位

要肩并肩 才能看好戏上演

we wana say

thank you thank you thank you...

这首歌，承载了我人生中，最美丽的回忆。。。

朋友们，你们现在过得还好吗？？

真的真的，好想念你们哦~

但愿这份感动，将永远永远的持续下去。。

白衣黑裙的日子。。

our hotspot....steamboat buffet^^ 2007*

still can't figure out why chiemin's hair grow so fast de??

still lack of some pictures, especially my f5 friends, they are equally precious to me, but due to the technology limits at that time, where we still use films rather than digital camera, i din't have them in my laptop, so, paise lorr...especially...

~my dear twin weewee~ queen of 'dian-yue'

~wanying~ the hiao po~~ wakaka...

....miss u guys o~

personality test...AGAIN & again..^^

你聰明, 有趣, 不愛轉彎抹角, 但個性複雜, 勤力而固執, 討人歡喜卻又喜怒無 常, 很早戀愛卻晚婚. 你個性獨立, 創新, 常希望站在眾人之上, 甚為霸道, 不 肖持相反意見的人, 且有仇必報. 無論在任何環境從事任何範疇都能顯出你的適 應力, 無往而不利, 但切記: 樹大招風, 更需留意會被勤力如牛的人趕上打天才 球的你.

haha, kinda accurate for me i think....^^