as i completed the 1st week of my posting there, a mixture of feelings and thoughts came across my mind....
so, i listed down some of them here...
1. first of all, a big salute to all the mums in the world, especially the one that gave birth to me 22 years ago, for the hours of torturing and all those dahsyat things that can occur in the process of delivery. mummy, u're the best!!! i never think i would put myself in such situation for anyone in this world and yet, mum has gone through all these bloody, gross and damm painful process for the three of us~~ mummy, love you lots and lots!!!^^
2. i came across to the same questions that kept bothering me during my 1st year in med school, which is "is med school really a wise choice for me??"" will i become a good, safe and competent doctor 5 years later???", "am i able to stitch up the torn vagina calmly with the blood kept oozing out and the mother kept moaning in pain at the same time???" " am i able to handle a situation when both mother and her child are in great danger during a difficult delivery???"
3. i met a patient who has to separated with her newborn baby very soon after delivery. she has suffered so much for her child during the delivery and yet due to lots and lots of unreasonable reasons, she have to gave up her child to someone else.... sometimes, life isn't fair, some mistakes are meant not to be done even at the first time, though there will always be options and ways to solved the mistakes but all the options will never be easy....
4. though it is damm tired, stress and busy in this posting, nonetheless, it's a posting where all the emotions and feelings come in...i'm at one of the most important point of a mother's life, where she need to go through so much pain and danger to give birth to someone she will love the most in the rest of her life...
0&g, it's all about the circle of life and the beginning of a new chapter of a woman's life...
Gal, that's a nice experience :). And, u will be a good doctor, just keep working harder, remember the motivation which drives u to take this path...
ReplyDeleteWahh....make me think twice about giving birth next time... maybe you find me a surrogate mum =P but anyway, gambatte, seems like you matured a lot ;)
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